I don’t consider myself to be “part of the group.”

Ha, not even after so many months, but it really doesn’t bother me too much. I want people to be my friends and to want to hang with me because they actually like my company/personality and we can have fun together, and nothing else, really. I wanted to be considered a “part of the group,” but I’ve come to realize I just do not care. It’s nothing personal and it is nothing against anyone else. If I develop a friendship or two, that’s cool, but if I am just civil and hang when I am included, there is nothing wrong with that. I made some good friends being in CT, and I know who my friends are outside of this state (even though miles and miles separate us), and I am honestly very happy with that and where I am at. I might get bored and I might not have a girl to go shopping with, but real friendships are more important than using someone else as a way to occupy my time. When I move out of CT in 2.5ish years, and I only have the four people from here that I honestly consider friends (outside of the friends I made before moving), I will be absolutely content.

I’ve just been thinking about this a lot and I have come to realize that I am just never really invited to anything, and somehow the excuse is always about me working but a lot of the time, I get out of work by 9pm and people are doing things, and I’m already not included, so why bother? Also, it’s weird when people I am apparently supposed to try and be friends with like to delete me off things, or they do not talk to me, or so on and so forth. It’s whatever. I don’t have much in common with a lot of the people I have met out here anyway.

kiiitten:

I hate that feeling at the pit of your stomach telling you something is wrong, but you just ignore it anyways

So much running through my head again. This fucking drive is got me thinking that it’s better instead to just relax and breathe.

— “Empty Roads,” by Close to Home.

vodkacupcakes: 5ociety: ckings: k-alifornia: kkahuna: go back to blonde kristen  her face looks so much more fresh when she has lighter hair.. if that makes sense she look so good in blonde wow she looks so good because her expression is happier and fresher. she doesn’t look like she has a knife up her vagina Reblogged for that last comment hahahah ^^^^^

vodkacupcakes:

5ociety:

ckings:

k-alifornia:

kkahuna:

go back to blonde kristen 

her face looks so much more fresh when she has lighter hair.. if that makes sense

she look so good in blonde wow

she looks so good because her expression is happier and fresher. she doesn’t look like she has a knife up her vagina

Reblogged for that last comment hahahah

^^^^^